I'm super excited about this upcoming season with CORE. It looks like we have a lot of wonderful projects ahead of us, and I am so ready to get back into the studio and create! I'm also looking forward to being amongst my fellow dancers as it's always invigorating having so many creative energies in one room. I can honestly say I've missed their individual personalities and fun spirits. Here's to jumping in to our 2014/2015 season on such a gorgeous day!
Rose
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
Monday, August 25, 2014
CORE hits the road with new programs in West Palm Beach
This past weekend CORE Artistic Director, Sue Schroeder along with Company Manager Patton White traveled to West Palm Beach, FL for two exciting projects bringing CORE into new communities.
Sue and Kate Klein, the Director of West Palm Beach Atlantic University's dance program, have developed a project that engages the dance students of WPBAU in the process of discovering the extent to which dance can serve as a channel of communication. With the support of a Touring and Residency grant from Alternate ROOTS, Sue and Patton spent some time in residence at WPBAU to create an original dance with and for the Palm Beach Atlantic University Dance Ensemble.
While there, CORE also presented movement workshops to the Palm Beach Habilitation Center in nearby Lake Worth, an agency dedicated to helping adults with disabilities become more independent through skills training and employment placement, as well to the residents of the Lourdes Noreen McKeen assisted living facility.
Reflecting on the time spent in West Palm Beach, Sue says, "Our work was tremendous. The students were open and receptive to us and all the new information that we shared with them. Our experience in the community at the Habilitation Center of Lake Worth and at Lourdes Noreen McKeen assisted living facility touched us deeply and broadened the meaning of our work. We left West Palm Beach very filled and with great satisfaction. We created a new work with and for the Palm Beach Atlantic University Dance Ensemble, a home is a home is a home. The piece will premiere in early November at the Kravis Center."
Monday, July 28, 2014
Dynamic X-Change Teaching Artist Lydia Hance
CORE
Collaborator Lydia Hance is a dancer, a choreographer, and a teaching
artist. As part of CORE's Dynamic X-Change, she works with students at the Monarch School.
"My time at the Monarch School as a DX teacher is some of the most rewarding and fruitful time I've spent as a teacher, and that's because it was truly an exchange. It was an exchange of joy, of risk, and of celebration. Before I came to the DX program, I was mostly teaching technique to dancers. While this is so important to our craft and our art, teaching in the DX was fulfilling in another way. In a way that allows teachers to walk into the room and know they don't have to have all the answers, in a way that allows for discovery and sharing in the classroom. The students see that their teachers are still students. And that is the most valuable of lessons."
"My time at the Monarch School as a DX teacher is some of the most rewarding and fruitful time I've spent as a teacher, and that's because it was truly an exchange. It was an exchange of joy, of risk, and of celebration. Before I came to the DX program, I was mostly teaching technique to dancers. While this is so important to our craft and our art, teaching in the DX was fulfilling in another way. In a way that allows teachers to walk into the room and know they don't have to have all the answers, in a way that allows for discovery and sharing in the classroom. The students see that their teachers are still students. And that is the most valuable of lessons."
Monday, July 21, 2014
Thoughts on Fieldwork from Houston Fieldwork Facilitator Neil Ellis Orts
Thoughts on Fieldwork from Houston Fieldwork Facilitator Neil Ellis Orts
True confession: I did not like Fieldwork at first. I won't tell the story here, but suffice to say, it was not my cuppa. Or so I thought.
But that experience was in another city. When I moved to Houston in 2003, I needed to meet people, artist people. I knew there was a Fieldwork session here, so I looked it up, gritted my teeth, and signed on. Then, Fieldwork became the foundation for my Houston artist community. By participating in Fieldwork, I found not only artists I admired, I found collaborators. Never mind the affordable cost for the weeks of feedback and a showcase at the end. It's the best deal in town.
And my original dislike? Here's the thing: the feedback format is difficult. It takes some work just learning how to give feedback. But giving feedback in this particular way also tuned my ear to how to receive feedback, as well. Giving myself over to the process, I hope, has made me a better colleague as well as a better artist.
Best way to get a bigger picture? Join us next session.
True confession: I did not like Fieldwork at first. I won't tell the story here, but suffice to say, it was not my cuppa. Or so I thought.
But that experience was in another city. When I moved to Houston in 2003, I needed to meet people, artist people. I knew there was a Fieldwork session here, so I looked it up, gritted my teeth, and signed on. Then, Fieldwork became the foundation for my Houston artist community. By participating in Fieldwork, I found not only artists I admired, I found collaborators. Never mind the affordable cost for the weeks of feedback and a showcase at the end. It's the best deal in town.
And my original dislike? Here's the thing: the feedback format is difficult. It takes some work just learning how to give feedback. But giving feedback in this particular way also tuned my ear to how to receive feedback, as well. Giving myself over to the process, I hope, has made me a better colleague as well as a better artist.
Best way to get a bigger picture? Join us next session.
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Breath & Bone/Orts
Performance, Until Spring, at Box 13
Artspace, Lone Star Explosion 2014. Performers: Joanna Bowen
Bridget Lois Jensen, and Neil Ellis Orts.
Photo by Alex Barber
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Friday, July 11, 2014
CORE's Leslie Scates named one of HOUSTON PRESS 100 Creatives
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| All photos by Catalina Molnari, courtesy of HOUSTON PRESS |
Leslie has created numerous commissions for CORE, including last season's herd, and recently became a Dynamic X-change teacher, working with students at The Monarch School.
"I feel honored to work with the company... No other company works quite the way CORE does. So fertile and humane. Across disciplines. Across borders."
Leslie's work at The Monarch School teaching movement classes began this past spring:
I said yes to the opportunity to work with a population on the autistic spectrum because I have a deep interest in therapeutic movement and also a keen interest in brains that think and operate differently than my own. I love the work and the students are delightful and challenging. Some of the needs that I feel the movement classes meet for these movers are:Stress reduction
- Somatic awareness
- Kinesthetic awareness
- Sensory integration
- Collaborative skill acquisition
- Social skill acquisition
- Range of motion increases
- Motor skill refinement; gross and fine
I am looking forward to continuing my work with the Monarch school students. It is a laboratory for me as an educator and dancer to listen very closely to the emergent needs of a class of individuals, and to provide a conduit for creative expression, social interaction, collaboration and movement pathways. These students are filled with language that inspires me to keep setting and reaching personal goals. And we have fun and sometimes we have intense moments. This is all valuable to me. I am glad to be a part of the students' weekly movement program at Monarch. I am also deeply grateful and my artistic process has been enhanced and shaped by being a part of CORE performance company.
Read Leslie's 100 Creatives interview here,
Thursday, May 08, 2014
On Cultural Exchange
On Cultural
Exchange
D.
Patton White, CORE Company Manager
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| CPC in America! question |
Exactly
10 years ago, I was one of 6 CORE Performance Company dancers working in Berlin
with Tanztheater Rubato, a duo company made up of husband/wife
dancer/choreographers Dieter Baumann and Utta Hell. We were there for 6 weeks of work which concluded
with the premiere performance of the new dance, America! question. As a
dancer, it was a very exciting time for me.
I was getting the opportunity to do what I am passionate about
doing—dance—and getting to do that in a very different place than I was
familiar with. Imagine, instead of
driving to work I walked down the 6 flights of stairs to the street (where
Christopher Isherwood had once lived) and headed to the U-bahn—the Berlin subway/elevated train—and took it to
the studio called Halle.
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| Experiencing Toulouse |
Jump
10 years later and I was again experiencing the good fortune to be
participating in another cultural exchange.
Once again CORE was collaborating with a duo company made up of
partners-in-life dancer/choreographers, this time Association Manifeste’s
Isabelle Saulle and Adolfo Vargas in Toulouse, France. And this time I was part of the creative
leadership team—one of four ‘directors’ of the new work, Je Suis/I am (Saulle, Vargas, myself and CORE Artistic Director Sue
Schroeder). Again I am getting to do
another thing I am passionate about—to choreograph/design, and in another very
different place than I am familiar with.
I have been given the opportunity to forcibly improve my understanding
of and ability to speak French. I have
the pleasure of experiencing life in a smaller and much older urban area than
where I currently live. And once again I
was able to enjoy life without a car.
Beyond
these every-day things, I am struck by the other incredible gifts that
international and inter-cultural exchange/collaborations provide the
players. In both of these instances, our
exchange has been with western/European cultures. Within the realm of contemporary or modern
dance, this means that we get to dialogue with the descendants of the European
‘line’ of modern/contemporary dance which had a very different focus on
theatricality. Influences from Mary
Wigman, to Bejart, to Maguy Marin were present, as well as an entirely ‘new’
way of approaching performance—informed by a heightened sense of
real-ness. As someone who finds
inspiration in all aspects of culture, the opportunities for architecture,
visual art, sounds/music, religious history, as well as geographical and
climactic realities to filter into the creative process are all exciting. Isabelle and Adolfo bring vast experience as
both performers and creators to the studio, and it is present throughout the
process. The subtle but powerful
presence they exude in the simplest exercise reminds us that technique is not
simply pyrotechnics, but a deep connection to the internal self. An attention to authentic relationships,
with no room for imitation emotions, brings a richness to the creative process.
I
don’t believe that just any American company would have benefitted from either
cultural exchange in the way that CORE has.
I believe that in both instances we were ideally suited to undertake the
challenging work that is cross-cultural collaboration. Each relationship had its own unique
parameters but the culture of CORE, with an appreciation of transparency,
individual expression and non-violent communication proved to be a healthy
incubator in which new work could be nurtured and developed.
The
collaboration with Manifeste is in its infancy, at this point, so I look
forward to being a part of the adolescence and the full maturity in the coming
months and years – look for the premiere performances in Atlanta and Houston in
the Fall of 2014. I look forward to
learning and sharing, and to dipping my toe back in to the performance
pool. All that, and the opportunity to
improve my abilities in the French language, too—even if it is to simply know
that the Toulousienne response to ‘Thank you’, is ‘With pleasure’—just as I
feel about this experience.
Wednesday, May 07, 2014
Wonderful Wednesday
We had a wonderful final TTI Wednesday here at CORE! We had the pleasure of spending a full day workshoping with incomparable Ann Law. We spent the day expanding our teachers 'tool box' and creating full 5-day lesson plans with partners. Our brains were full and minds were fed with a generous amount new knowledge and insight. One concept that stuck with me was the idea to teach as you. Not to try to be someone else or teach something you're not completely passionate about. Teach what you love, love what you teach!
Until next year, TTI!
xo
Anna
Until next year, TTI!
xo
Anna
Monday, May 05, 2014
Gettin' ready
Erik is getting' ready to dance...
Anna & Josh gettin' ready for our run through of Heart of the Matter
Patton's feet gettin' ready for our company meeting
Dancers in a meeting, gettin' ready for the week!
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Monday Funday
We were happy to have Sue back in the studio with us today as we continued work on Vivaldi Dances in the Park!
Friday, April 25, 2014
Today was...
Today in rehearsal we laughed, we cried, we danced on a journey...
of Baroque
of spirals
of pirate walks
of seven ages in
"All the world's a stage"
We worked deep on the purpose and meaningfulness of movement (and stillness) and we continue to do this work that is ever-growing.
I can't wait for when we're live with the musicians on stage!
We continue to do our best to be curiouser and curiouser...
Our imaginations are exercised more and more
every time we move
every time we are still
every time we listen
every time we dance
of Baroque
of spirals
of pirate walks
of seven ages in
"All the world's a stage"
We worked deep on the purpose and meaningfulness of movement (and stillness) and we continue to do this work that is ever-growing.
I can't wait for when we're live with the musicians on stage!
We continue to do our best to be curiouser and curiouser...
Our imaginations are exercised more and more
every time we move
every time we are still
every time we listen
every time we dance
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| Amanda is always reminding us to pick up our feet! |
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| Amanda's hiding place revealed... well, the third panel reads "nuttin's sacred" |
Monday, April 14, 2014
Rose's France Experience, Part 2
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| Musicians jammin' on the Pont Neuf Bridge |
Another layer under the sameness layer is that there ARE folks here in Toulouse wanting changes and growth and are seeking it.
I see it in…
• Isobelle and Adolfo and their drive to be successful artists that matter to their society/city and the world
•Juliet (their daughter) who is a young adult not wanting to just fit in, and shows us where to party in places that hold like-minded night-time socializers.
• Sylvain (our housemate) who battles a similar subject of being a successful artist, still striving to prove to a government that’s decreasing its funds that an artist is providing something substantial to his community… a voice for new ideas; like gender, how does it affect our perceptions of beauty?
• The graffiti artist next door TILT who battles the validation of his ideas of beauty in a city that doesn’t accept his work as “real” and legal art… or does it?
I think the underground believes it is art because I noticed graffiti all over the city especially in the public park areas. It is so similar in Atlanta, the only difference is that the conversations are happening more here to accept this art, like with Living Walls who can/has made an agreement with the city to utilize certain structures to present graffiti art in a way that lines up with the vision of many. I think there is room for this in Toulouse as well. It’s just a matter of speaking up and listening in turn; being heard and then also being willing to hear.• Isobelle and Adolfo and their drive to be successful artists that matter to their society/city and the world
•Juliet (their daughter) who is a young adult not wanting to just fit in, and shows us where to party in places that hold like-minded night-time socializers.
• Sylvain (our housemate) who battles a similar subject of being a successful artist, still striving to prove to a government that’s decreasing its funds that an artist is providing something substantial to his community… a voice for new ideas; like gender, how does it affect our perceptions of beauty?
• The graffiti artist next door TILT who battles the validation of his ideas of beauty in a city that doesn’t accept his work as “real” and legal art… or does it?
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| One of the many talented street performers, a one man band! |
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| Best place for young folk to hang is along the Garonne River bank. |
Friday, April 04, 2014
TOULOUSE
I
am in a foreign country for the first time since Isreal.
I am lagged and exhausted.
Fed and inspired.
Taken care of here.
I wish I had it in me to take off on a night stroll through these new streets.
But my eyes cross as I write this.
Some things on my mind are:
Diana Vreeland
The French Appitite
And French Eye Contact
Thank you for every experience that has come between us
Us as brothers.
WHERE I IS
Photographic fruit tray
beside my sea urchin bed.
I pass the fruit de mer and go straight for the duck.
Is it French to eat slowly?
Is it American to eat quickly?
Is everything really more than we need?
At times I am the white minimalist
And others the swine.
I'm thinking about control issues as the waitress takes away my uneaten fries.
TO BE OPEN AND KIND AND STILL GET WHAT YOU NEED
I am self conscious about:
MY BODY
MY APPEARANCE
MY ATTITUDE
MY ENERGY
HOW I AM PRECEIVED BY OTHERS
MY CLOTHING
MY DANCING
MY ART WORK
WHAT I CONSUME
eye contact or lack there of
windows and the actions within
the people
the food
the attitude
the way the city is organized
our habits while playing foreigner
FERTILE GROUND
is what can be found
in places of vulnerability
I know it belongs to me.
And how do I let go of the other?
void of emotions
laid emotions within
I can go nowhere to escape the insecurities
Security doesn't live outside of me
It's within these walls wherever they may be
VICES
ALWAYS SHOW THEIR HEAD AS MONSTERS
BUT WHAT IF THEY CAN BE MADE LIGHT?
OR EVEN FUNNY AND EASY?
Is that my age or the nature of the use of my time?
I am surrounded by support and love and creating beautiful things.
Learning exquisite lessons.
I feel through play as a child I am able to speak as an adult and that it's ok
I am ok
I can become vulnerable and there is strength
OH TOGETHER
I went for a long run with Stephanie yesterday afternoon and remembered that more things bloom between myself and another when I can let them in. Or let me in. Or let me out.We ran for an hour. We talked.
I ran slower for longer and my body felt very different afterwards than it usually does after a run.
It was strong but also light. As one of the pigeons swooping down for a small piece of the infitinite amount of bread in this country.
HORSE
I ate horse.Along with some great conversation.
It made me feel strong. Maybe the way one feels after eating buffalo. Or elephant. Or another man.
UH
As much as I love being here at a certain point I become anxious for home. For my routines and my privacy. My secrets and my vices to be indulged in alone. Without the eyes of others known or foreign.It is always the future perfect version of me that I chase. I'm not sure if it's blindly anymore.
But with a snipper's percussion
What makes us forget that we are human?
What makes us forget that we are beautiful?
her hands stop shaking
and she can speak her mind
What has this place done to me?
Or was it the act of moving my body to here, around here and back again?
Or grow old and fat and not hate myself so much.
How do I get to them?
man
artist
dancer
ON A PLANE
from Toulouse to Paris where I will get on another plane that will take me back to the motherland.
Everyone's persons are so exaggerated at this point:
He replies in an all knowing tone (but maybe he does actually know all)
She seeks videos relentlessly, or something from within a magazineas does he.
The other girls have their eyes closed
and I play the tour de control
and I'm ready for a break from this me
Toulouse was nice
Toulouse was winding
No one sees you like you do
Josh en France: First Impressions
The first day is still extremely fresh in my mind- arriving to an apartment and greeted by the congenial Paul-Eric, whom
I thought was named “Politic” due to accents. Everything looked like I was in the middle of an IKEA
catalogue- simple, functional design that was user-friendly but clearly belonging to a different culture.
Suddenly I was lost in imagination, trying to place myself in the narrative of my parallel, French self. What was a school day like on an average Monday? What path do I take walking home from school, and who are my friends? What kinds of things would we be talking about? What worldview would I have and would anything about my American identity remain among a French upbringing?
It became very clear that I was indeed a visitor to an alternate reality. Every day I spent in Atlanta, these people spent in Toulouse. The gigantic world was always turning and meanwhile I pretend to be the only one living on it. That thought alone guided a lot of my approaches toward French interaction…
So there we were, 7 Americans dumped into a foreign city and it was time to explore. As we began to walk across the Pont-Neuf bridge for the first time I remember being in awe of my surroundings. Their whole approach to city planning is so different yet works in such a better way. It’s built in a way that people can actually use their city, and it encourages people to walk around, be outside, and shop local. So many different shops, occupations, specialties… Everything they consume is made with artistic integrity.
Later that night I still needed to buy food and some basic toiletries, and I mistakenly went into Le Pharmacie, which I thought would be like CVS but was actually a more expensive establishment with healthy products. The lady tried to ask me if I was looking for anything in particular but she spat out the words with such speed that all I could do was offer a blank stare and somewhat crumble internally. “Je ne parle pas francais.” I slowly muttered, surprised at how odd this language sounded on my tongue, despite sounding like beautiful French in my head. Slowly we found the items I needed, and I walked my jet-lagged, haggard self back to the apartment.
That first day’s shower was life-changing and restorative, but I was still overcome with feelings of displacement and having to assume the role of alien. The next 48 hours were super weird because I felt myself to trying to acclimate but was also dealing with an incredibly messed-up sleeping pattern. Although I knew how exhausted I was, nothing could be done to quiet my mind. I still have no idea what is wrong with me in that regard, but you'll be happy to know that the insomnia subsided due to each day's hard work.
Suddenly I was lost in imagination, trying to place myself in the narrative of my parallel, French self. What was a school day like on an average Monday? What path do I take walking home from school, and who are my friends? What kinds of things would we be talking about? What worldview would I have and would anything about my American identity remain among a French upbringing?
It became very clear that I was indeed a visitor to an alternate reality. Every day I spent in Atlanta, these people spent in Toulouse. The gigantic world was always turning and meanwhile I pretend to be the only one living on it. That thought alone guided a lot of my approaches toward French interaction…
So there we were, 7 Americans dumped into a foreign city and it was time to explore. As we began to walk across the Pont-Neuf bridge for the first time I remember being in awe of my surroundings. Their whole approach to city planning is so different yet works in such a better way. It’s built in a way that people can actually use their city, and it encourages people to walk around, be outside, and shop local. So many different shops, occupations, specialties… Everything they consume is made with artistic integrity.
Later that night I still needed to buy food and some basic toiletries, and I mistakenly went into Le Pharmacie, which I thought would be like CVS but was actually a more expensive establishment with healthy products. The lady tried to ask me if I was looking for anything in particular but she spat out the words with such speed that all I could do was offer a blank stare and somewhat crumble internally. “Je ne parle pas francais.” I slowly muttered, surprised at how odd this language sounded on my tongue, despite sounding like beautiful French in my head. Slowly we found the items I needed, and I walked my jet-lagged, haggard self back to the apartment.
That first day’s shower was life-changing and restorative, but I was still overcome with feelings of displacement and having to assume the role of alien. The next 48 hours were super weird because I felt myself to trying to acclimate but was also dealing with an incredibly messed-up sleeping pattern. Although I knew how exhausted I was, nothing could be done to quiet my mind. I still have no idea what is wrong with me in that regard, but you'll be happy to know that the insomnia subsided due to each day's hard work.
Wednesday, April 02, 2014
Something new about Anna discovered by Anna in France
TAKE ME BACK!
What a whirlwind of a two weeks.
I acknowledged a lot about myself on this trip - less (consciously) affected and effected by what I thought would peruse me; the cultural transfusion. I felt open, prepared to take on all that came with and went with the process of traveling internationally for the first time. The challenges: I was ready for. Bring it on. The discomfort and overwhelming unsure-ness of the experience of being so out of my comfort zone definitely presented itself more times than I can count, but I felt like I was prepared enough to at least attempt to embrace them. I was entranced by the feeling of being the foreign, someone no one knew anything about. I could be anyone! I could be someone I never was in Atlanta.
I wondered what made me feel like that. Why couldn't I be that person in Atlanta?
It was like some kind of international courage that didn't exist when I was at home, in my element, my comfort zone.
I have always liked the idea of being knocked on my ass out the door of my comfort zone. The idea of being pushed into experience I was unsure about and being challenged beyond what I thought possible. The IDEA of it. I like to think of myself as a strong artist that can adapt to anything, handle anything. Not expecting it to be easy by any means but I can do it.
This work process in France told me otherwise. I continuously criticized myself, let things get to me and questioned to myself why I was there. I felt like I didn't deserve to be there. Instead of being that person I could never be at home, I was faced with uncontrollable unconscious walls building themselves up between me and this person.
What am I waiting for?
Why are you being so resistant?
You don't have to be anyone else.
Don't be afraid.
Why are you so scared?
You don't have to explain yourself.
No one understands what I am going through.
Don't tell me you understand.
Stop trying to fix me.
Where is this coming from.
What's wrong with you?
I hate this.
What are you doing here? You don't deserve to be here.
You're not bringing anything to the table.
You don't deserve any feedback.
You are stupid and ugly.
I CAN'T DO THIS.
Why are you being so selfish?
Stop complaining.
Get over it.
You can do it!
You are always so strong and bulky and this way - can't you be more like this? More light and feminine and pretty and a good dancer.
Give me something positive.
Yeah, why aren't you more like that?
Try something else.
Stope feeling sorry for yourself.
I should quit.
Why am I wasting my and everyone else's time being here?
You are doing it wrong, but don't take it personally.
It's not all about you.
The best thing about that duet was that the other person made great choices.
Push through, push through, push through.
Personal in terms of the work.
Complaining vs. generosity
Relate your issue to the work and it could be helpful.
Share what you feel or just get over it? Is that just your nature? Did you really ever get over it? You let it build.
THATS NOT ME.
Be transparent sometimes.
Be yourself.
It's okay.
You learned something from all this.
You are stronger than you think.
On this trip I was forced to step back and acknowledge these feelings, observations, thoughts I am often faced with at home but felt kind of extreme in our process in France. It allowed me to see myself in a new light. It was like being in this artistic process, I put myself under a super fine magnifying glass and really feel them and find out where they are coming from.
Of course there were more positive and seriously life changing experiences in France then not, but this was a large part of my overall experience. I think this writing was a little fed by the conversation preceding this assignment to reflect but it made me realize my feelings are not nothing and it is okay to feel what you want to feel when you are feeling them. Sometimes they stick around sometimes they pass. Either way I can now identify them and maybe that's the first step to being a better me or figuring out who I really am.
What a whirlwind of a two weeks.
I acknowledged a lot about myself on this trip - less (consciously) affected and effected by what I thought would peruse me; the cultural transfusion. I felt open, prepared to take on all that came with and went with the process of traveling internationally for the first time. The challenges: I was ready for. Bring it on. The discomfort and overwhelming unsure-ness of the experience of being so out of my comfort zone definitely presented itself more times than I can count, but I felt like I was prepared enough to at least attempt to embrace them. I was entranced by the feeling of being the foreign, someone no one knew anything about. I could be anyone! I could be someone I never was in Atlanta.
I wondered what made me feel like that. Why couldn't I be that person in Atlanta?
It was like some kind of international courage that didn't exist when I was at home, in my element, my comfort zone.
I have always liked the idea of being knocked on my ass out the door of my comfort zone. The idea of being pushed into experience I was unsure about and being challenged beyond what I thought possible. The IDEA of it. I like to think of myself as a strong artist that can adapt to anything, handle anything. Not expecting it to be easy by any means but I can do it.
This work process in France told me otherwise. I continuously criticized myself, let things get to me and questioned to myself why I was there. I felt like I didn't deserve to be there. Instead of being that person I could never be at home, I was faced with uncontrollable unconscious walls building themselves up between me and this person.
What am I waiting for?
Why are you being so resistant?
You don't have to be anyone else.
Don't be afraid.
Why are you so scared?
You don't have to explain yourself.
No one understands what I am going through.
Don't tell me you understand.
Stop trying to fix me.
Where is this coming from.
What's wrong with you?
I hate this.
What are you doing here? You don't deserve to be here.
You're not bringing anything to the table.
You don't deserve any feedback.
You are stupid and ugly.
I CAN'T DO THIS.
Why are you being so selfish?
Stop complaining.
Get over it.
You can do it!
You are always so strong and bulky and this way - can't you be more like this? More light and feminine and pretty and a good dancer.
Give me something positive.
Yeah, why aren't you more like that?
Try something else.
Stope feeling sorry for yourself.
I should quit.
Why am I wasting my and everyone else's time being here?
You are doing it wrong, but don't take it personally.
It's not all about you.
The best thing about that duet was that the other person made great choices.
Push through, push through, push through.
Personal in terms of the work.
Complaining vs. generosity
Relate your issue to the work and it could be helpful.
Share what you feel or just get over it? Is that just your nature? Did you really ever get over it? You let it build.
THATS NOT ME.
Be transparent sometimes.
Be yourself.
It's okay.
You learned something from all this.
You are stronger than you think.
On this trip I was forced to step back and acknowledge these feelings, observations, thoughts I am often faced with at home but felt kind of extreme in our process in France. It allowed me to see myself in a new light. It was like being in this artistic process, I put myself under a super fine magnifying glass and really feel them and find out where they are coming from.
Of course there were more positive and seriously life changing experiences in France then not, but this was a large part of my overall experience. I think this writing was a little fed by the conversation preceding this assignment to reflect but it made me realize my feelings are not nothing and it is okay to feel what you want to feel when you are feeling them. Sometimes they stick around sometimes they pass. Either way I can now identify them and maybe that's the first step to being a better me or figuring out who I really am.
Tuesday, April 01, 2014
Stefanie's random thoughts on Toulouse / France
Stefanie's random thoughts on Toulouse / France
A fresh, new breeze into
my life. New smells, tastes, colors, sounds.... fresh and
enlightening.
Meaningful travel with
this particular group. Different. Supporting each other. Looking out
for one another. Enjoying my own space, my own privacy, enjoying
being around and with them.
Easy flowing all around. Roommates. College dorm?
Together and building.
The Kitchen. To share
food, share laughs, share conversations, experiences, opinions.
Sylvain and Nordine – what a pleaseure. Drinking coffee out of a
bowl. Funding systems for dancers in France. Heavy french doors. Many
old dance works created in Europe. Wine, puffed corn crackers.
Baguette and S. Pellegrino water. Cheese... French Words. Recycled
garbage. We all cooked food. Tons of coffee. No expectations, no
rules. Only the one rule to close the kitchen door while cooking
because of the "ticklish fire alarm". Everyone could flow in and out.
Sometimes super busy, filled with tons of smells. Sometimes quiet.
Only one person. A beautiful dance created in the space with 7 people
cooking, preparing food. A breeze flowing in from the large windows.
Efficiency yet pleasure
and indulgence. Recycling. Bringing your cotton shopping bag – Je
suis tout bio. Merci. Bike riding... what a joy and freedom. Rent a
bike on every corner. Tisseo buses. Trains every 3 minutes. What a
dream! Things are where life is happening! Restaurants, shops,
grocery stores, fresh markets, coffee, baguettes, … All. All in the
midst of life, in the midst of people. No separation. No isolation.
Easy flowing. Connected and accessible.
A beautiful webbing of
differences- diversity. Everything is in it's right place in that
webbing creating beauty. Creating life.
Efficiency in people
maneuvering through the streets with shopping bags, strollers,
walking with someone else or single, on their bikes or in the car.
Indulgence. Sitting down
for 'une cafe' in the sun, with a cigarette, and a croissant or
baguette of some sort. Conversations. Community. Together and
building.
Old buildings with the
smell of dust. The sun hitting the buildings..... pink and red in
color.... embellished, heavy front doors, balconies embellished with
squiggled balustrades. Buildings wildly collaged and patchworked
together. Life is inside of them. Life flowing in and out of them.
And I? I smelled and
tasted and saw and flowed. Flowed through it all. Enjoying it all.
Breathing it all in. Nourishing my curiosity.
Rose's France Experience, Part 1
Terracotta roofs mirror the layers of feelings, experiences, and realizations that occurred within and without me while I was in Toulouse, France for 2 weeks.
Cobblestone or brick streets and walkways, ancient buildings were so beautiful and flourished with design. It wasn't revealed to me well on into the second week that even this beautiful city has its dark side too. Conformity to provide a certain "look" or "appeal" was there in the sameness of all of the buildings having pretty balconies, terracotta roofing, college kids desiring to "fit in" by wearing chic blacks and grays when they are going out to "get away" from daily duties. However, I also realized, especially on the last day, that there is a reason for many of these things, and when I place myself in their shoes (as best I can) I come to find a pride in their history and oneness. In order to preserve the beauty of much of the architecture, rules are created to prevent them from being altered (ex. - same colored shutters on each window).


In some ways I sympathize with this type of mindset and in others I want to share what possibilities there are for change. It's also not up to me to change others; unless how I live my life inspires them to change, I believe you can't make people change. They’d have to want it for themselves. Of course, I love Toulouse for what it is, I also love Atlanta for what it is. I also enjoy imagining what it (Atlanta, Toulouse, the world) can become because things are always changing and shifting whether we want them to or not. I never get bored. =)
Tuesday, March 04, 2014
Studio Spotlight: Sundew with Liz Peterson
Ponder classes are mini creative workshops exploring personal and philosophical topics and how they relate to you as an artist (and all humans are artists!). Each ponder will include a short presentation or discussion followed by a creative project related to the theme. The content can be mind-expanding, healing, informative or simply curious. Ponder classes will generally last about one and a half hours.
- What do you teach at CORE studios?
I teach creativity workshops (called “Ponders”) Ponder classes are mini creative workshops exploring personal and philosophical topics and how they relate to you as an artist (and all humans are artists!). Each ponder will include a short presentation or discussion followed by a creative project related to the theme. The content can be mind-expanding, healing, informative or simply curious. Some example classes: Object Meditation, Working with Limitations in Art, Reflections (loosely, a class about mirrors), Hue are You (color class).
- What got you into teaching?
I have always been involved in hobbies and creative pursuits, and though I enjoy my solitude when creating, I equally enjoy sharing ideas about the process with a like-minded group. This sparked the idea behind teaching classes related to the creative process. Though, to be honest, I don’t consider myself a teacher so much as a curator and presenter of ideas. I believe that each person who attends a class with me will be their own teacher. - How long have you been a teacher?
Sundew is a very new venture for me and the first time I have taught since moving to Atlanta. Prior to that, I taught art and craft classes for several years in my mother’s garden shop as well as an art studio that I owned in Florida. - What two adjectives would you use to describe your classes?
Thought-provoking and fun - Tell us a little bit about what your focus is for classes:
My focus is on exploring various ideas about the creative process. The intention is for class-goers to learn more about themselves, gain some inspiration or break through a creative block. - Do you have any upcoming projects or events that you are excited about?
Yes! I am excited about my first class at CORE in March on personal mapmaking, as well as a few upcoming art parties at other locations. - What do you love about CORE studios?
I love the accessibility, the price, and the beautiful space!
Liz’s next workshop is on Sunday, March 30th 5pm-6:30pm. Her contact information is 404-386-1774, www.sundewstudio.com, sundewstudio@gmail.com
Tuesday, December 10, 2013
Studio Spotlight: Taiko Drumming with Peter Marino
- What do you teach at CORE Studios?
Taiko Drumming
- What got you into teaching?
I’ve done it most of my life. I love the feeling of helping people understand something they didn’t know before.
- How long have you been teaching?
20 years
- What two adjectives would you use to describe your classes?
Engaging and Fun
- Tell us a little bit about what your focus is for your classes?
Getting participants, some who have never played before, to experience the joy of playing music with others.
- Do you have any upcoming projects or events you are excited about?
We are working on a five-movement piece to represent the five classical elements of fire, water, air, earth and spirit.
- What do you love about CORE Studios?
The location, the feel, and the people I have met.Learning Taiko takes place on the 2nd and 4th Sunday of each month, with a beginning class from 3:00pm to 4:15pm and advanced class from 4:30pm - 5:45pm. To sign up, visit atlantataikoproject.com.
Wednesday, November 06, 2013
Studio Spotlight: Vital Cardio Blast with Tim Roberts
As a licensed personal trainer, for the last 9 years, life coach and
massage therapist, Tim Roberts has developed various programs that will change
the clients outlook, empower the clients ability to exercise, and
strengthen the body to the best of the clients ability which in turn
enhances the clients physical, mental and spiritual well-being.
To learn more about Tim read below, and be sure to visit his website at tryworkout911.com
To learn more about Tim read below, and be sure to visit his website at tryworkout911.com
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What do you teach at CORE
Studios?
Vital Cardio Blast on Fridays 6:30pm to 7:30pm
- What got you into teaching?My love of fitness, working with people and the growing obesity epidemic in our community.
- How long have you been teaching?6 years
- What 2 adjectives would you use to describe your classes?Invigorating and Fun
- Tell us a little bit about what your focus is for your classes.To give people a different perspective on fitness…make fitness fun so participants don’t feel like they are working out because they are having fun.
- Do you have any upcoming projects or events you are excited about?January 2014 – Community Fitness Fair in Stone Mountain, GA
- What do you love about CORE Studios?
The location, space, community and
courses that are offered.
Friday, October 18, 2013
France Comes to Atlanta
This week starts our collaboration with Association Manifeste from Toulouse, France. The one language that we all speak fluently is dance, and that is how we communicate, besides the broken English, Spanish, and French.
You can see the work we'll be creating here next Thursday at the Rialto Center for the Arts in downtown Atlanta. You can also see the performance of Association Manifeste next Saturday outside of the Rialto. If you can't make either one of those shows or you want a different experience, come to our Salon next Tuesday at the studio. See you all soon.
You can see the work we'll be creating here next Thursday at the Rialto Center for the Arts in downtown Atlanta. You can also see the performance of Association Manifeste next Saturday outside of the Rialto. If you can't make either one of those shows or you want a different experience, come to our Salon next Tuesday at the studio. See you all soon.
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